-I need to do and witness things that give me energy.
-I need positive energy around me.
One positive thing I got from this past year of illness is that I immediately know if something give me energy or not. Probably I also had this before, but now my body reacts more direct. I get tired from things that do not give me energy.
There's a lot of music that drains energy from me. Music that perhaps in the past I thought I needed to listen to. But I can't anymore.
But I also need positive energy from the people around me. And I need people to react positively to my energy. Maybe this is what people call a 'click'?
To have an initiative responded with only 'but' is destructive. I notice I always try to respond positively to every energy that comes my way. I can't in every case of course. But I try. Because it is always easier to shut up. By action and initiative you make yourself vulnerable. But it's the only way to build something.
I was listening to this while writing: https://open.spotify.com/track/3Qk6NKukIPlR4AMZLHY30A